Why yes, yes he did.
And I married him.
That was the only outcall I ever did, for him or otherwise, the only man I ever did more than jack off for money. That was my…Pretty Woman story. The wealthy guy, the hooker, the inappropriate meeting, etc etc. We fell in love and it was amazing.
Six years later, we still are in love, but not so amazing. Oh, and because we met the way we did, I’ll go ahead and say that sex had nothing to do with our failings. No cheating, no desire to relive the old days, no hostility or questioning.
I think about it like you don’t know what happened between Julia Roberts and Richard Gere in the future, so…yeah. Maybe they lived happily ever after, and maybe we will too. Who knows. I doubt both very much though.
And, I didn’t do it because I had to. I didn’t have to jack dick period. I left home at 17 voluntarily, and maintained a good relationship with my grandparents the entire time (they had/have no idea of course) and I could have gone back home whenever.
Everything I did I wanted to. Not in the beginning, no, but eventually I enjoyed it. It may sound strange to some of you, but I don’t regret a day, and being that I made it out without ever being arrested for solicitation it’s all good.
If I didn’t have children, there’s a chance I’d still be a sex worker right now, although I doubt it. I’d really had my fill by the time I left it behind. By choice. I don’t judge, the johns or the providers – as long as they are adults making consensual and fully aware decisions.
In my opinion, forgoing morality as our society defines it, prostitution is no different than marriage, or dating, or most other things that involve fucking and any form of compensation be a drink or a ring or whatever.
So, it annoys the fuck out of me when people feel sorry for me, or ‘wish things had gone differently’ for me. Don’t. Those comments irk the shit out of me. Even more than “OMG YOU WHORE!!!11!” would. Stop it.
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I don’t feel sorry for you.
Your life is what it is and made you what you are today.
And you rock. Hard.
Almost as much as me ;)
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I watch the show Cathouse and I LOVE it. It really shows you how the girls are. Some are slutty but others aren’t. Some are just normal girls trying to better themselves. It really makes you think and not judge others until you know their story.
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December 22, 2008 at 12:32 am
I don’t get what there is to feel sorry for…that you were forced with a gun to your head? But I don’t think you would have continued much longer than you actually did – you’ve got too much ‘fuck you’ about you to be anything less constantly evolving than you are; staying in the industry as you were, you would have hit a ceiling of sorts, and it’ve gotten old fast. I think.
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You make your choices, just so happens your life is pretty rich…
Didn’t see that one coming.
But all in all, if you do what you want and don’t hurt people in the process, I see no reason to pity or dislike you.
You have 2 beautiful little girls and you’re an independant, intelligent woman. Those are all good things.
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How about “OMG I FEEL BAD FOR YOU!!!”
Does that work?
:D Heh.
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You are right…. consensual sex is a transaction. Just because one woman doesn’t accept cash as payment, doesn’t make her a little holier. Reminds me of Janis Ian’s song ‘Ruby’ –
Some sell their bodies for dimes.
Others marry for the houses
And the jewelry.
It’s a real thin line,
What you charge for your time.
Isn’t that the truth.
While I was reading it I was thinking about that possibility. But I was hoping the sex got better.
December 22, 2008 at 9:45 am
@Honeybell: Oh it did, *lol*. The first time didn’t count. It was…not indicative of how it was/is. :)
You guys really got married?
I have to admit these posts completely transfix me. As a chick who’s had sex with one dude her whole life (not counting the ladies), the concept of sex with strangers/more than one dude/etc. is an arousing thought. Wank-worthy, obviously not that super glamorous in actuality. You know?
Thank you for sharing your stories. No judgment over here. :)
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OMG, I totally didn’t see that coming about him being your future husband!!
BTW, how are things going with him? Did he come home for good?
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They shouldn’t feel sorry for you they should want to be you. How many of us really live OUR lives, by OUR terms? Not many. Rock on.
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Wow, yep, didn’t know that’s how you met the man who became your husband. Nope, I don’t feel sorry for you or for anyone who is able to make the choice to be a sex worker – those for whom it’s less a choice and more of something else are a different issue entirely, but aside from that I’ve always thought it should be legal so that people can be better protected. I agree, too, that prostitution happens in all kinds of ways other than when money changes hands.
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Oh I love the twist in events ! I don’t think any of us saw that coming, but I LOVE IT!!! Makes your life sound more interesting than the rest of us LMAO :O) My hubby and I met at the … ahem Library :O) or at least that is what I tell my kids :O) muah hahahaha
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Marriage is hard no matter how it starts. Mr. Twinkie and I dated for two weeks then became engaged. Romantic? Sure! Easy? Fuck no.
Still together?
Yes.
Wonderful?
Sometimes.
We go through our “rough patches.”
I think we all do. The only difference between and divorced people is that we are willing to make it work. Correction… we are BOTH willing to make it work. It doesn’t work when only one person is making the effort though.
And so we get to edge… ready to jump off the ledge into divorce. Then at the last minute we pull each other back and are happily ever after. Again. Until the next hill/ledge up ahead.
Don’t be frustrated. It’s life. It happens. There is no “real” happily ever after. You have to work hard at it every day. And hope that when you’re too tired to, he will.
oh boy the typos and ommited words… sorry. I think you get the jest of it though.
What a “how me met story” …certainly out of the ordinary. And here I was thinking I was cool for meeting my husband at a brewery ;).
But you’re nothing if not extraordinary, Maria. And I’ve never felt sorry for you. Just admiration. I hope that things work out for you two, if you really want them to.
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I’m a little put off by both the “poor pitiful Maria” comments and the “wow! that’s super cool, I wanna do that too!” ones. so I guess you could say I’m somewhere in between?
I’ll stop there. everything else turns into analysis. it’s habit.
I don’t feel sorry for you in the least. You are a culmination of your life’s experiences. You are who you want to be. Read my last comment on the post preceeding this one.
Nope, no pity here. Just respect.
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OMG YOU WHORE!
Haha – kidding!!!
I agree with you, though. I wouldn’t mind if they legalized prostitution- it’s a fricking business, the oldest profession in the world, and it involves consenting adults.
You’re awesome. <3
I support you. No pity nor judgment here.
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the only way i would feel sorry for you is if you were telling us how depressed you were about your life and how you have lived it. but you aren’t. so i don’t.
and, as i’ve been telling you since i met you…back at the beginning of your blog…
you’re awesome. i may not come here a lot. you may have taken me off your roll. but it doesn’t change the fact that you have a lot to say and an incredible way of saying it!!
happy holidays to you and yours!
xo
I think what happens in our lives shapes us. The choices we make lead to a specific future. So, because you are who you are – awesome mom, funny and inspirational – I can’t really say anything in the past you did was bad – it lead you here! People make their own choices, and that was yours. If it worked for you, it worked.
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Fabulously said!
In the words of TI and Rihanna… LIVE YA LIFE ;)
I have to say. After reading that post about the outcall I went back and read all of the Dance Dance posts. I do hope you’re still writing them for a book because they are fucking phenomenal. You’re a writer, girl, and amazing, and anyone who feels pity for you is looking at the world wrong.
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