I feel like it’s always alluded me. Like I’ve always been on the brink of bliss, but never could quite get over that edge. Until recently. I’m totally, completely happy. There really isn’t anything in my life right now that I would change if I had the opportunity to. It’s like the universe was just waiting for me to end things with J. Like life was holding my happiness hostage until I let him go. In actuality I understand that it was all me – I’ve been resigned to misery for so long because I resigned to settling for him.
Things are falling into place and I cannot remember the last time I was so elated. I wake up and fall asleep smiling. I’m excited for what the future holds for my daughters and I. I am hopeful that J. and I can learn to get along now that we’ve removed the romantic element from our relationship: maybe we can even learn to be friends. This week we start the divorce paperwork, and in about two months I’ll be officially a divorcee. I’m more excited about that than I ever was to become a wife.
I’m looking forward to my new life and all it’s possibilities.
I’m looking forward to ridding myself of the weight I’ve gained over these past 6 years, emotionally and physically.
I’m looking forward to acing some easy courses at school and deciding once and for all what to be when I grow up.
I’m looking forward to walking Bella into her first day of Kindergarten and Arí into her first day of Pre-K.
I’m looking forward to becoming more confident and independent than I’ve ever been.
And I’m looking forward to spending more time kissing these than doing almost anything else…
* The title of this post is going to be tattooed across my chest in a few weeks.
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I think you have nailed it.
Settling for something, anything, is the vehicle for misery delivery.
May the future remain bright for you and yours.
SingleParentDad´s last blog post..Embracing My, Or His, Other Side
Out with the old and in with the new; life that is. I’m glad you’re in a good place and happy with your life.
And…who’s lips are these (Joey?)?
Employee No. 3699´s last blog post..Franks and Beans and Other Bathroom Mishapps…
Good. Enjoy yourself. You deserve it.
=)
I guess I was right. You do have the capacity to love again. ;-)
I know for a fact that women like us, we have to go through the bad, the horrible, awful shit to really solidly understand and appreciate the good.
I love you, you know that?
xo
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Um, yes. I can see why you would look forward to kissing those… :)
I am so happy that you are happy. Relish in it and try to figure out what you’re doing so the happiness will be easier to get back to again. And then put it in a bottle so I can have some, ok?
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Hello scruffy beard.
It’s always kind of crazy when you realize you’ve been holding yourself back!
New found happiness, what what!
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Happy, happy! Joy, joy!
Congrats! :)
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I’m happy you’re happy!
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Maria, I am SO HAPPY to read this! Seriously, if anyone deserves it…
I’m glad that things are looking up. And I don’t know what the rest of it looks like, but that part up there? Pretty HOT!
YAY Maria!
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Very nice lips… It nice to be excited about jumping in again… Enjoy!
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I’m happy that you’re happy! Good luck with every thing that’s ahead love….
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I’m so happy for you! I’ve been seeing your ‘happy’ tweets and I was hoping you’d post something soon.
Great lips by the way. :)
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well, well, well!
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Happy is an amazing feeling. And those lips are looking pretty delicious.
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February 4, 2009 at 7:39 pm
Happy Sigh. (except you’re looking forward to Chicago more than anything else.)
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Your post couldn’t have come at a better time.
(hugs)
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Either my facial hair problem is worse than I imagined, or you’re cheating on me.
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Huge hugs and hurrays my very darling and wonderful, Maria!!
It sounds like you have a lot to look forward to. I’m glad that you have found the happiness you deserve (and a good pair of lips… they never hurt) ;)
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I’m sorry, but I can only say I told you so ;}
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Those are some seriously nice lips. Good luck and I hope your happiness continues to grow. Peace!
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its great what you have come to realize, and most importantly not to take it for granted. nice blog title by the way.
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I am so happy for you, which you know, but surely can’t hear enough!?!
xoxo
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I am so happy for you. I can imagine how you must feel!! Congratulations on smiling again– you DESERVE IT.
PS: It’s not cheating if it’s just the computer screen I’m kissing, right? I mean, those lips… they just look so kissable…
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